My friend secretly giving my phone number to one of her boy friend.
And then she told me about it. I was surprised why she do that, to tell you the truth I am a type who does want a boyfriend only when I feel I am liking the guy.
At first, it was neutral talking, games and all. And my friend saying that the guy started to like me, and not kidding.
I say he was kidding, and denying it. It's getting annoying, I don't want to be cruel. Seriously, but I actually enjoy having my alone time, I enjoy company, really, I do.
But everyday sending Whatsapp from day to night, that was not pleasant for me.
And I did send him messages how I start to be sarcastic so he stop doing it, and he still did. He say sorry and try talking other thing, it was fine but just for a moment.
He started it again. Asking a lot of things, make me start to get mad quickly over questions.
He was asking a lot, a lot and a lot that I feel moody of all times, I cannot enjoy my funtime, as it always cut by messages. I want to appreciate what my friend did, but I cannot take it anymore. My friend made it worst because of circumstance.
Chinese New Year, he came to my house, with my friend and her boyfriend. *sigh* he was shy like I am but I am kinda change so I talked a bit lot than him whose quiet all the time. And actually the next day aka 3rd day I want to go visit my friends house with others and my friend made the circumtances in case I reject the offer of riding with him on his motorcycle, she said she may want to bring others who cannot ride motorcycles. I am not selfish, so I agreed...he talked to me when it's just us alone. I was not mad at him, he was kind enough to let me ride, but I have my limits.
This night I decided to tell him, to better not asking too much indirectly, he spends phone credits like it was water. Why he sends SMS? Because I was avoiding him not answering facebook and whatsapp. He is so persistent.
He said he likes me, but to be honest I did not like him.
Just normal, neutral. I want to love the person I really love, this matchmaking is really not good at all.
Now, I do not care if he wants to tell to my friend about what I send, I do not care anymore. If she asked why, I'll just let it all out, straight but not angry, I still want to be friends with her but if this make us not friends anymore, fine by me. I have my feelings too.
I may do not have a boyfriend like her. I may cannot enjoy sweet love like those who have girlfriends or boyfriends. But I still happy As I wanted to be.
This just stressing me up. Sorry for the long rant. I am happy if you read it and give your true comments.
You can hate me, or whatever it is. But this is me.
From Gold who enjoys friends and company but also enjoys the quite peace of alone.
Listening to: Snowbelle theme song
Watching: Meda all over again
Drinking: choco milk